If You Ever Wonder Why I Fell For You

If you ever wonder why i fell for you, here is the answer of your question because you deserve to know that you are an amazing human being. You told me that i was golden, but so are you. I am going to tell you, countless times that this wholesome relationship is not gonna work if it wasn't you in the first place, i am able to come this far because it was you, your delightful characteristic, your rare personal trait, your dazzling pair of brown eyes and set of straight eyebrows which i admire so much especially when you showed me your heart-warming smile, also your sweet scent that leaves mark in the end of the day. Now i look like a fool teenager in love, aren't i? Sigh.

 

I low-key going to write you a long text paragraph so be patient with me, will you?

The first thing that came up to my mind when i recall about why i ended up interested with you exclusively because you did not rush things while i was still struggling and unsure about my own feeling, but on the other hand you helped me find out what i believed long time ago was lost within me. I am grateful that you did not force yourself towards me, instead you said "good thing takes time" or "better thing not come easy" and when Ian flirting with me, you managed saying something that made me feel indescribable towards you although it was just a simple word, but simply made me lost for words.

The more i discover about your personality, the more you look incomparable in my eyes. Talking about past, i know everyone has past. I am not gonna lie, our past happened to be a hard swallow pills for both of us, but it makes us into who we are today, i just wish the two of us take a lesson and able to grow from the painful truth to be the best version of ourselves. Experience has taught you a lot to be a better person, to value everybody and every little thing around you, it made you gentle and stronger at the same time, it caused you to learn not to judge things quickly. You told me that i was rare, but so are you. Your kindness always makes my heart flutter, when you asked my opinion about something and made me like i was a part of your world, when you were so concern about my feeling every time we exposed a bitter truth, when you were walking on my pace to align with me i know it took you to be a lot more patience, when you accept my idea of conception because we shared the same thought about what should do and what shouldn't do in this life. You see, the more i write about you, the more i get frustrated due to the realization as how much i am attached to you now and how deep i fell for you. sigh, it was such a contradiction to my latest post, wasn't it?

 

We always say communication is the key but i often run away from that. There are so many times i think i am not worth enough to be with you, feels like i was just remahan rengginang compare to your life, i hardly ever say that because i know it only caused an argument between us. Instead i handled it myself and working on myself to be better like you always do for yourself. I feel loved, appreciated, respected, and comfortable the most when i am with you. Honestly, you spoiled me too much and i hope i can give you the same feeling you have given to me; blessed, overjoyed, fortunate. Having confronted other people with crap personality even made me more grateful that i have found you.

 

Spending time with you feels like being Cinderella for a day, i have got magical moment and should be at home before midnight. Before we met, we always playing game up to late night. We are slowly changing, aren't we? Remember the time when we first having a video-call via Whatsapp? I saw you on my screen phone, you vocally said you were a potato and insecure about it. But in fact you are so far from being a potato, the first time i saw your face i was like "what in the world was this guy talking nonsense about?" because i do really like your face from the moment i laid eyes on you. I never even once think you are a potato because in reality you are amazing. Even when i catch you smiling while looking at me, or when you did a little dancing with your shoulders, when you made a lot of expression and wiggled your eyebrows. Those silly things i admire.

I don't want to make you insecure about yourself, neither i want you to talk bad about your body, but i will simply said it's all okay as long as you are working on it, i will support you. And that is what really matters. Throughout the time we spent together, i always end up gain another reason as to why i am interested in you. Maybe it was your heart-warming smile, or your beautiful eyes, or your sweet laugh, maybe it was your rare personality, or your warm hands, whatever it was, it made me fall pretty damn hard.

 

I know that i have written you five pages of letter, but this one is on different level, in my blog, public. Open up about my feeling like this feels like i am offering myself to let someone holding my weakness, it made me look pathetic and i hate it. But this post is dedicated for you, a reminder that you are worthy, you are more than enough, so, have a good day!