To My Sister From Another Mister

I wrote a message for Iqro's birthday about 2 weeks ago, and then here I am thinking about what if I write a story for your birthday. hell, I'm writing this to congratulate you despite your birthday is still 4 months ahead bitch be grateful you have me as someone who loves you so damn much, buy me food ASAP. We've gone through thick and thin ya know, since we were the 'ugliest' to 'not ugliest but still ugly', at least we've changed eventhough puberty didn't hit us like a damn plane crash more like hit us like odong-odong laaah, it's okay we're still cool anyway. It was nice that God had led me meeting you that day.

I still remember the fateful day i met this girl-who was the subject of my envy back then because she has fair skin and round eyes, the opposite of mine-I met her on the first day of school, in Muhammadiyah 4, dia lagi jadi pengemis. enggaklah. she was my classmate. she had sat near teacher’s table when I entered the class, but then suddenly she talked to me "eh, duduk sini aja", that was it guys, I shouldn't have had agreed to her. Thats how history was made, that's-how the circle of satan began for 8 years and still counting. she asked me to sit next to her despite there was someone's bag on the chair, what made me confused even more was because she removed the bag out of the chair so I would be able to sit next to her. I was so surprised, this dude is crazy I thought, what the hell, did you just move someone’s bag and tell me to sit there are you going to make me your partner in crime because yes I'm in we can do this bestie!!

On the first day, we talked a lot from clannad to ayodance. I have never been happier because it felt like I have found my long-lost sister. This silly girl even trusted me with her heart when I said Greyson Chance was my boyfriend. gotcha dumbass! You added me on facebook with the nickname "Syaffira Chacha Part Terakhir" for someone who wants to throw up, the floor is yours! She might had forgot this, she used to pinch my cheek. aww, we were like a lesbian couple back then bsh. You named my contact as "Karina-chan :*" I bet she made an ugly face while reading this post. In fact, my mind had totally refused to tell this story, yet my fingers betrayed me. The past makes me want to dig my grave all by myself. 

I can recall in the past that you were poor, when I asked you to go hangout with me, you always refused and said "nggak boleh sama emak gua" but we ended up lying to Yuyun aunty, I brought you with me and bought you food.. dude I was rich. And now the tables turned, life sucks but yay you got me free food. I got a lot of experience when we became friends, like when we went to Jakarta-for detail, it was Kota Tua-without our parents and there we intend to meet your boyfriend. Oh I remember you once wrote love letter for someone from another class when we were in seventh grade while you were currently still in a relationship with your boyfriend, so she was cheating as a matter-of-fact guys.

It was mid semester and you gave me a news that made my heart broken at the moment (dude why I sound like a lesbian so much in this post???), you said your father had told you to take homeschooling instead. So here is a short story from my life, when I was in elementary school my friend moved to another school as well, and this the second time I got left behind. I swear this bsh is a heartless bastard, I'm not going to forgive you until my death for leaving me behind! You were absent for a long time before you decided to take homeschooling. Thus Iqro, Ingga and I went to your house. Oh guys you have no idea how many times she surprised me and she never failed, her mom told me that she was in warnet at the time. I went to warnet and found her playing ayodance like "mamang-mamang", ew she was cupu and she asked me to play missions. What made our friendship beautiful was, we ended up playing warnet together until dawn like cabe-cabean.

We were still communicating with each other despite you taking homeschooling. We mostly spent our time together in ayodance and bought a lot of micash, because we didn't know how important make-up back then. we ugly girl no make up and proud as fuck, give us medal. When i was in the final year of middle school, you had moved to Karawaci and again we couldn't be separated by distance. aww, romantic. wish i have this kind of relationship with my boyfriend. but for now i'm settle with only an IMAGINARY boyfriend, a hot daddy if i might add.

We even had a boyfriend with some fucked up personality at the same time. Oki and Bagus, remember? And for the second time, Ferry and Bagus. Don't ask me why i settled with a trashbag like Bagus while she had changed boyfriend twice. Bro no you didnt win, cuz even though you changed boyfriend twice, those two boyfriends of yours were sucks and assholes and still a trash bag it didn't make any different. Well, the reason I hadn't changed boyfriend; I bet he fucked my brain right, that's why I was brainless, and that's why I got myself stuck up with him. Or maybe because I was being friend with Iqro at the time, her stupidity massively spreading like covid-19.

To be honest with you, I'm growing tired of hearing those same bullshit such as your boyfriend treated you like garbage, hey you will never be tired for choosing fuckboys over and over again, won't you? you dawg shit, I hate you but I love you so put me out of misery, stop chasing toxic people otherwise I'd end up hearing your tales of broken heart again lady. Moreover, I wanted to kill myself this instant when you came to me with the same question "terus gua harus apa", I gave you tons of solution and no matter what it still ends up with those words "menurut lu gua harus apa" damn you.

The time when we used to visit Lippo, it was like a monthly routine, a period. We proudly went there without make-up, even rats refused to look at us. We bought a drink from Starbucks and it was always Vanilla, we had lunch in HokBen, took Snapshoot, bought comic from Gramedia, watching movie in cinema XXI, of course with Iqro. This kid will always be a third-wheel between us. I love her too, so whenever she read this post she wouldn't get crying because I barely mention her.

Aren't you supposed to give me a medal because I remember your birthday, November 10th? Wait, what is it, Asshole Day? You didn't remember mine. I brought you with me to Lippo on May 11th, there was no slight of curiosity came across your mind, like try asking me "lu kenapa tiba-tiba ngajak jalan?" I despise you.

Okay, enough with the nostalgic. Happy Birthday my darling bestie, you are one of the most important people in my life, you should know that without you my life wouldn't be the same, I will never be able to go this far without you by my side. When I was at my worst, in that case when i had rejected by a company, you spoke to me that it was going to be okay, that was not my place, I would be alright, I was not disappointing anybody, I did great and did my best for everything.. If only you knew I was crying at the time I received that message from you. I was crying outside the company, sat on the roadside alone. dawg, my eyes going to cry after a long time, gotta hit the wall to feel manly again. that's why I love you and thank you for everything you have done for me, smartass.

You are brave and that's what I envy most about you. I hate to see you destroying yourself but damn you because you never filter someone who will be your boyfriend, cuih. You are my human, even though the world is against you, I will always remain by your side, to tell you what is right and what is not for the sake of your life, or maybe we could just go wrong together to help Iqro down there, hell is waiting with Iqro in it, hopefully not going to happen. I've always asking God for giving you and Iqro the most loving husband in the future.

Honestly, you are beautiful with the way you think, with the kindness within you, you are beautiful in every way, stop being insecure with yourself, you are made to be someone's queen, not to pleased everyone. You know sometimes I wanted to be like you, funny, easy going, brave, somehow your personality reflecting the opposite of mine. Okay will you excuse me, I have enough of this, my mind is going to explode due to writing tons of paragraph for you like I madly falling in love with you bsh. Lastly, I think it's not too much to ask if I want you to always be my partner for bullying Iqro, I know you will accept it whole-heartedly.

I love you.

- 8 years of friendship.

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this represents our friendship most of the times.